As time goes on we have been able to handle our sadness better.  Life certainly threw us some curve balls since my last post.  We had a cancer scare with Will the week after our miscarriage, which thankfully turned out to NOT be cancer.   Will had to have a surgery under anesthesia 6 days after my D&C surgery.  Before he had woken up from the surgery, the Dr. spoke to me and said there was a 50% chance that it was mucosal cancer, and I just stared at him in disbelief.    I thought to myself, “surely to god we will not be thrown this the week after we lost our baby.”     After that we were just numb really.  We had to wait for 6 days to find out the pathology report because of the long weekend.     We started every house project known to man to keep our minds occupied.  At least the house is going to look pretty badass when we’re done.    The diagnosis came up as “inverted papilloma” for Will, which although can turn to cancer (he will have to be monitored the rest of his life to make sure it doesn’t come back), it is not cancer right now.  PHEW!     

 I plan on  picking up short term and long term disability insurance  (I realized that we have our health and life insured, but if one of us was diasabled and not able to work due to sickness or injury then we’d go bankrupt).    Anyways, now that we’re over that ‘cancer’ hurdle,  I feel like we can truly begin to move on from the miscarriage and all the other bad stuff that went along with it.    There are still times that we cry, as I’m sure there will always be.  We are doing well.  I’m just so thankful that we have each other and our health to move past this horribleness with.